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Trump has brought out the worst in people. It is depressing to find out the depthless hate that encompasses a mind I thought was peaceful and progressive. I don’t wish violence on anyone. This was not always true. After a long grueling journey to self-awareness and acknowledging my responsibility in personal consequences, I am not one to judge. Many experiences mold a person’s perception of the world. I have done a lot to silence the hate from my past so as not to allow it into my future. It’s not easy. What was easy was to make a knee jerk reaction to my demon’s teeth latching onto my emotions to drive me away from my true self; the self that is untouched by other people’s beliefs. I took a step back to see, hear and learn while keeping the distance of peace and love in my heart. I see posts that crush my hopes and dreams. One man’s selfish desires are destroying our great nation. If he were judged as a woman, people would have called him a slut, a whore and a tease. Not rallied behind him to support his demeaning of women, using and then discarding people, taking advantage of our great nation’s loopholes instead of pointing them out, overlooking trials of criminal deception involving and rape and fraud and soon he will be calling for a revolution not caring how many people will be hurt and destroyed while he sits safely on his golden throne smiling about the chaos he created. Supporters have already mentioned a revolution if he doesn’t win. He calls the voting rigged and yet only Trump supports have been caught trying to vote more than once and are being arrested by not following voting laws. These laws have always existed and I know this because I once took a brochure from someone outside of a school where I was going to vote and was immediately told to throw it out when I entered. These are facts. I know this won’t change how people feel. The anger some feel at the system is too great. The hate of people too great. Maybe I should start posting riots and against Gays. Gay bashing etc. The labeling of gay people as pedophiles. Or the great uproar over priests molesting children and instead of being charged, were moved by the Vatican to molest children elsewhere. Do you think that has stopped? Or the KKK riots, Skin head riots, black church shootings. Our history is full of people thinking they’re better than others. White people lynching black people like they were less human than their murderers.

Our nation’s big bang start occurred after the destruction and theft of Indians and their land. And our founding fathers created a list of laws favoring only wealthy men and adding the lie of freedom of religion.

My last point is…I read posts that have been fabricated to stir blind anger. Photoshop pictures with false headlines and stories that people repost. It’s scary what people want to believe. And yet we have someone who wants to lead us down that road already traveled and littered with the remnants of human rights and dignities. I want to continue forward.

Luigina Silver’s obsession to eradicate vampires turned her long troubled soul, dark and unforgiving. Michelle, her best friend and lover, knows the good heart beneath the hate and refuses to abandon her the way everyone else Lu ever loved, had.
A simple execution leaves Lu turned into one of the vile creatures she’d been hunting. Unable to come to terms with what she’s become, Lu attempts suicide, only to be stopped by Michelle. To keep Lu in the world of the living, Michelle secretly makes a deal with the agency that employs them both. For Michelle’s plan to succeed, Lu must survive that betrayal, let go of her destructive past and worse, face a reality where vampires are not inherently evil.
As if the odds weren’t already stacked against her, Alexander, a powerful vampire and influential member of the agency, covertly plots Lu’s permanent demise. Will Michelle get the happy ending she’s been fighting for or, in the end will hate defeat Lu, as it has done so many times before?

Anger Kills focus, concentration and character. That’s why we nitpick at our loved ones, nag our partners or internally self-destruct trying to hide from the chaos our emotions have caused in our world.  Want to know a secret? Feeling anger is a choice. Acting on anger is a choice. It’s all about how we perceive ourselves. Think about it. Confident people do not get angry. They can still be wrong, but believing in who they are, what they stand for, and their self-value keeps them from diving into the carnage of self-dissection.  

Most of the time anger comes from within. It is very rarely caused by an outside attack. What hurts the most comes from within.  For instance, if your self-esteem is scraping bottom and you think you’re not smart…a simple comment about a classification of intelligence from an ignorant person can trigger the beat-yourself-up anger. And then what? Who suffers the consequences…besides yourself? The person you love the most. The person you feel most safe with. The one person who knows your true value, ends up defending themselves against someone else’s, dare I say it? Un-called for, spoken without thinking, comment?

I have just begun to master the turbulent emotion we call anger. I started with silencing my bad thoughts, knowing the true answer to my issue had nothing to do with what was said or done, but what “I” took from it. I had to stop my partner from helping me until I had complete control over the heat searing my most inner thoughts. Sometimes it takes days of silence contemplation, but when I am ready and haven’t revealed the source of my pain, I let my partner in to help, because by then, I am fully aware that the answer is inside me. I’m still a work in progress, but I can truly say I am happier every single day that I unfold the secrets hidden inside me. They just make me…me and the more I learn the more peace I feel.